slaughter me silly

How you forgot about me, and put all your energy and time into taking care of her. Now you’re defending her against everyone, even me when I haven’t done anything. You just want to keep her safe. But it’s not like we tried to kill ourselves on the same day or anything. you haven’t said anything to me about it since, just let me sit in my pain. But you’re always checking on her, always defending her, getting involved to try and protect her. I bet you don’t know she likes you. I bet you don’t know shes loving the attention. I bet you don’t know shes extremely racist. I bet you don’t even remember, I tried to kill myself too. Youve forgotten all about it, and all about me. I want to kill myself so much more now. I just want to die, that’s what I want. I don’t know if I can do this, when even others are starting to notice the way you put other girls before me. I feel worthless, meaningless, forgotten, alone.
Here at my dads, I have two of the sharpest razors I’ve ever had before. It’s like they’re calling me, screaming my name. I want them. I want to bleed. I want to feel tired. I want..an end.
I’m already forgotten.